I found this in one of my journals, had totally forgot about it. I think I got it from a friend…
Do you ever feel this way? I am sort of struggling with this. Actually it is a big reason I have volunteered soooo much, and part of the reason I need to step back. I want to change things. To my way of thinking.
I am not your average suburbanite. I think competition for young children is ridiculous. I think kids are over scheduled, selling too much junk, and should not be allowed to have tvs in their rooms or phones. Yep, I am that mom. I think they should be dirty from playing outside, fingers paper cut from reading books and creating, playing sports for learning and fun, selling lemonade not cookie dough.
I volunteered at the school to try and push my own agenda. That did not work out. I volunteered at church because I saw a need and I wanted to get the focus back on Biblical things, not just social events. That kind of worked, I just ended up sucked dry doing too much. We switched dance studios. I am homeschooling.
Now I am going to do something different. I am going to be that somebody here at home. I am going to push my agenda here. I will just have to try and save the world one child at a time, starting with my own. At least if I raise them this way, maybe they will think the same way?
Do you ever feel this way? Like there are so many things you think could be better? Simpler? More faith filled? How have you been that somebody? How do you do it?