I am still thinking about the IF Conference. Still processing all they said, all I wrote down, and how it affected me. Christine Caine spoke the second day and here are a few of the notes I took (I considered scanning and posting, but they were written furiously fast and messy, so here is a synopsis, and yes I used that many all caps):
*We are on the edge of the Promised Land. How long have I been standing on the edge of the river Jordan? Maybe in ankle, knee, or thigh deep? I need to SUBMERGE and TRANSFORM. God has a special place planned for me, here and in heaven.
*Past seasons are over and it is time to move on–I must be STRONG AND COURAGEOUS. I must let go of what is dead and done–I must DISMOUNT THAT DEAD HORSE.
*He says, “I am the God of I AM, not I WAS!!
**The call of God will be inconvenient and disruptive. He is waiting on me to take the risk and trust that He will give me courage. I need to embrace my place God has assigned me and be ready to serve.
I love love love the dead horse imagery! Good thing I didn’t use that in the art, huh?
But it is sooooo true! I have been holding onto a lot of baggage. WHY? Isn’t it silly? Why would I allow one tiny season/comment/situation in my life define my WHOLE life? Why??? I can learn from all those past experiences. I can remember the good ones that have shaped me. But it might be time for me to cross over that river into the promised land. God planned me with talents to do His work, and it just might be time.
What if Jesus came for me right now to take me to that promised place? Would I be like, “Wait. Just a sec, you are moving too fast–I have to drag all this SH*# with me! I can’t leave it behind! I’d rather do this other stuff!”
NO! I would drop it all like a hot potato and run for His arms! So why not do it in this life? Every day as a Christian is another choice to believe, to follow, to serve. Easter and spring always seem to refresh those choices. Today I choose to step into my promised land.
As I am writing, I am scrolling back and forth to look at the art. God is so cool–He helped me add in a whole slew of little symbols that I didn’t notice until now: like the blue river Jordan on the right side, or the print of the doily that is sort of like a light shining, or the green butterfly fresh out of a cocoon ready to fly and be transformed. Looking at the art makes me feel that much more ready.