Ah, peoples, I am just going to be real tonight. Completely honest and vulnerable and transparent. Off the cuff, not using my scheduled art and notes, nothing. Just gonna let you in.
Because today was HARD. And I don’t have the energy to dig deep tonight. As a lot of you know, I usually write most of my posts on Saturdays, schedule them for the week, and then can focus on other things. But this weekend I didn’t have a chance to write. The last couple weekends I haven’t had a chance to write. I am in a polar vortex of sports. This time of year is hard for a non-sports fanatic: between our own baseball games, hockey playoffs and basketball playoffs on tv, and regular season Twins games…I cannot escape it. And I can’t get anyone else to turn it off. So if I am not running to games, I am spending an hour every day looking for the stuff they have lost. Because they can’t see the hat sitting on the table. Or I am trying to catch up on everything around the house.
I am in technology meltdown. One computer is dying–hopefully we can keep it running until our IT guy comes back again. Everything seems to be in slow motion. I cannot seem to be happy with several marketing items I am trying to put together, I spent all morning rearranging pieces. My phone keeps dying and getting stuck so I have to restart. And then when I was supposed to work on-line with it and make some calls during dance, I forgot the stupid thing.
I got lost three times today. Trying to find one store. Who does that? With a GPS? I wanted a store not a distribution center. UGH.
We did homeschool, but the girls were pretty independent today.
Then I had someone email me tonight that a notebook I made, I used the wrong dictionary page, I am tearing up I am so mortified, it had several horrible words. I really do try to be careful. So please, if you have bought anything from me with dictionary pages, please check it and I will replace it for free. My heart is heavy.
My current to-do list is filled with lots of fun things. Lots of stuff I want. But on a day like today, it is overwhelming.
Ever have those? So I am having a little pity party right now. And I am trying to remember that my Lord is near me. My spirit is feeling heavy under the weight of all those little pebbles. And I am trying to remember that Satan is trying to tempt me right now. Anytime something really good faith wise happens Satan seems to be right there tempting me over the edge. He loves to play with my perfectionism. He loves to push my guilt buttons.
So I am going to stare at the breathe deeply artwork, drink some wine, and talk with God. He is such a good listener, even for the little pebbles. And I am going to push away my frustrations and Satan. And I am going to look forward to a new day tomorrow full of grace.
Thanks for listening. Love ya’ll.