There is nothing like a few days off to sit back and reflect. As I have been doing just that, this art piece means more and more to me. As usual, I post artwork that I made a couple months ago. (Sometimes it is annoying that I work out like that, but most of the time it is comforting I have material for the blog and have that cushion.) So this isn’t a new thought for me. This past year and all of its changes brought on a lot of reflection, although Jeff says I reflect way too often. 🙂
But I AM put back together differently. If I look at the person I was just six years ago and compare her to who I am now, I am incredibly different. And not just because I have a new job and new home. My heart and thoughts are different. My mental state is finally healthy. My faith is new and stronger. Those things aren’t visible on the outside. Some of you who know me really well, or have followed the blog long enough have maybe seen the depth of the change from depression to healthy mindset. But even then, you may not realize the gravity of it.
But GOD does.
And He knew all along where the new pieces should go. He guided me and pushed me, and shoved at times. He knew that the puzzle of “me” was not put together correctly, because I had tried to do it myself. And only HE had the plan of how it should be.
I find comfort in that. He didn’t LET things happen to me…I let things happen to me. And I chose to deal with it in certain ways, and tried to put things in my control. And He watched as I did so, and never left my side. He kept His plan tucked in His pocket, just waiting for me to come around to His way, the better way, because His is always better.
If you aren’t letting God put your puzzle together, step back and reflect. Now is that golden time of year when we all do so. But look at your puzzle through the eyes of your creator. What does He want for you? How can you let Him place your pieces back together differently than you tried? How could that change you?