Swim and be sustained


I have had this quote for years and tried to illustrate it.  Finally I knew what to do with it this summer.  While I was in Iowa this came out of me and I shared it on facebook at the time, but this is the good scan of it.

This is yet another way of looking at what I talked about in the last post.  I noticed that many of my journal pages dealt with this theme…not being afraid.  Living each day.  Trusting God.  It is MY art and gratitude journal, isn’t it?  I guess I am drawn to these thoughts lately.  Or either God is slapping a big ole pile of learning on me.  Hmmm.  Maybe both.

How about you?  Are you drawn to a definite feeling in quotes or verses?  This fall (since I already have everything created and planned) you might see a lot of this type.  But I am going to challenge myself to verge off in a new direction.  Do you ever do that?


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The right Way

IMG_0011-001He has a plan for me, for my talents.  As long as I turn to Him who created me, who is with me at all times, who doesn’t want me to stumble, He will direct me.  He will not let me falter.

This is my direction.  This art.  Sharing my faith, the gospel, spreading truth and light and love.

It may not be museum worthy.  But it is touching you and me in a real way.  And that is His plan.  It is time to be me.  The me He created me to be.

How about you?  Where is He directing you?  Which arrow will you follow?  His or your own?


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Is this Heaven?

If you love baseball, are from Iowa, then you know the answer.  Is this heaven?  No, its Iowa.  (Field of Dreams)

This is how people get confused.  Easy to see why:IMG_0012

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Just in case you aren’t feelin’ it



I have been just a little ray of sunshine lately, huh?  I am trying to walk the walk and talk the talk friends.

Sometimes I don’t feel it.  Sometimes I feel like a big ole nothin’.  I sleep too much.  I am not a “fine” artist.  I have not created an orphanage or malaria hospital out of the country.

I have a temper.  Sometimes I want to throw pencils at people.  Spit wads.  Sometimes I actually do sit on the rock in our front yard (which is at a four way stop that no one stops at) and I literally SHAKE MY FIST at the people in the cars.  True story.

I was just listening to WBGL radio and they were discussing the comparison game that happens among moms so much.  And apparently, according to them, there seems to be a peak in this at the start of school.  (I think it never dips, honestly).  The comparisons can bring us DOWN super quickly.  I do not even look at, let alone subscribe, to parenting magazines of any sort.  They bum me out.  Because I don’t sit on the floor and play games with the kids.  I don’t make shaped pancakes every Saturday and never will I frost a sugar cookie.  I let my kids watch an ungodly amount of tv.  I swear, in front of the kids.  I don’t make them match their clothes and they will never look like little models.  Not happening at this house.

And then I remember this.  God can do anything.  He created everything out of nothing, including Moi.  And He will help me be awesome in my own way.

So I paint in my journal illustrationy little things…that ya’ll seem to enjoy.

I homeschool my kids and take them on field trips.  I am awesome at letting them be their unique selves and celebrating that.

I take super awesome naps.

I bake really good mac and cheese.

And sometimes I keep that temper in check and smile really sweetly at people, maybe think naughty words.  🙂

God created me to be who He wanted.  Who He needed me to be.

God will help me turn it around, he will keep me on the path.

Well said Martin Luther.  That Martin, he was one smart dude.

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sing it sister



Do it!

Let it out…loud and clear…with gusto…with love…with hope.

Sing it people!

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Two Much

Guess what I did?  I did not let enough be enough. Mostly because I can’t focus.  ADD strikes again.  I made this artwork:

IMG_0041Then I found this artwork when I was scanning things in:IMG_0038

Seem familiar?  Huh.  Well, I guess I really liked this idea in my head.  Needing a little more organization I guess.

So what do you think?  Which one should go in the store?  I like them both.  I love the sentiment of this.  Might use it for valentine’s day actually.  Sunny people are so lovely to be around.  I strive to be sunny.  And if I can get every square inch of the day, awesome.  That would be enough.  And the people who are sunny around me, I want to cram them into every square inch.  The day is just so much better around those people.  Definitely an excellent card.  Good job Walt Whitman.


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But here’s the thing: LOVE



Do it without logic.  Sometimes.

Do what is enough.  Call it good. Whether it is big or small.

But do it with love people.

Love on anyone and everyone you can.  ‘Cuz that’s what its all about.  It’s about love, love, love.  (HA!  Do you remember that Sunday school/Bible school song?  LOVED it.  I know you are singing it with me. )

THIS is what being a Christian is about.  This is what following and being faithful are about.  Doing it in LOVE.  Not in lustful love, not in judgemental love.

LOVE.  PURE.  LOVE.  Even if it is for someone you disagree with.  Even if it hurts.

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Robin Williams & the ying and yang of creativity

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Ahh, creativity.  Thou hast brought me great joy.  Thou hast caused me great angst.

This is the life of an artist, yes?  Unfortunately, yes for most creatives.

We put ourselves in an extremely vulnerable place.  We open ourselves up to so much, pour ourselves out, and filling that well back up can be almost impossible sometimes.  Especially since really, we require more filling than others because we are so vulnerable.

This quote has been on my mind for a while.   Can anyone really make you feel alone?  Or do you already feel this way and occasionally encounter those that reinforce that emptiness?  Everything you feel, think and see is already within you, attributing it to another person is merely a denial of yourself to yourself.

I actually pinned this a few days before Robin Williams death.  Here was a powerhouse of creativity and vulnerability who understood.  Creatives can be in a room full of people, but still feel set off from the rest, still feel different, still feel empty.  Alone, yet stand out.

Especially when you throw in depression/anxiety– because really they are kissing cousins who walk hand in hand.

There in is the ying and yang:  the high of creation, of letting God flow through you to make something that will touch others–swing to the low of emptying yourself into something no one recognizes or gives credence and the low esteem that follows.

"You're only given one little spark of madness. You mustn't lost it." - Robin Williams  #quotes

He was able to embrace his madness and spill it out onto the screen for all of us to be filled with his creativity and humor.  I didn’t know the man obviously, but I have watched many of his movies , which are favorites, over and over and over.  Many of the other quotes I found were from movies, not necessarily things Mr. Williams said.  But the way he recited those lines with gusto, emphasis and emotion made me believe that he felt that way.  Made me feel like he was directly channeling the screenwriter and touching each of us watching.  What a gift.

But obviously he had those demons.  He didn’t always get refilled for everything he gave.  And that is sad.  So sad.  That he felt alone still.  He maybe had those feelings that, even if he didn’t feel alone,  he believed those closest to him would have it easier without him.

That’s the part people don’t always understand about suicide.  In my case, I didn’t consider suicide only  for selfish reasons, but that I thought it would be truly easier and better for everyone concerned if they didn’t have to deal with me.  Others would probably miss me, yes I understood that, but from the bottom of that pit I thought there were few choices:  waste a lot of money locking me up for the rest of my time and they would lose me to craziness but still have to deal with me, or waste everyone’s time trying to control the crazy being around them, or just let it be over for all of us so we could move  on.  As a depressed person, it can be easy to believe the last one is the best choice for everyone.

Thankfully, I am out of that pit.  I had people close to me that helped me realize there were other choices–ones that could help me survive the vulnerability, maybe not need quite so much filling, ones with less drama, options that would help the chemical imbalances I could not control, no matter how hard I tried.  Medicine was able to pull me back.  My faith, friends and family keep me evened out.  But still, if I forget that medicine, I can, and will, crash.

I wish Robin Williams, and so many others, had been able to climb out.  Hopefully he has found peace at last.  Please, if you struggle with anxiety/depression–seek medical help.  It is a cancer of the personality and brain.  It cannot be cured, but it can be controlled.  Seek help.  Don’t leave the pit entirely.  CLIMB out.  Believe this:



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Keeping Perspective–enough



This one is a little different than others.  A little doodley, not super colorful.  But it is ENOUGH.  It is good.

I am enough.

And so are you!

We will not beat ourselves up today.  God created us to be us.  That is enough.

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wait, who???



I found this in one of my journals, had totally forgot about it.  I think I got it from a friend…

Do you ever feel this way?  I am sort of struggling with this.  Actually it is a big reason I have volunteered soooo much, and part of the reason I need to step back.  I want to change things.  To my way of thinking.

I am not your average suburbanite.  I think competition for young children is ridiculous.  I think kids are over scheduled, selling too much junk, and should not be allowed to have tvs in their rooms or phones.  Yep, I am that mom.  I think they should be dirty from playing outside, fingers paper cut from reading books and creating, playing sports for learning and fun, selling lemonade not cookie dough.

I volunteered at the school to try and push my own agenda.  That did not work out.  I volunteered at church because I saw a need and I wanted to get the focus back on Biblical things, not just social events.  That kind of worked, I just ended up sucked dry doing too much.  We switched dance studios.  I am homeschooling.

Now I am going to do something different.  I am going to be that somebody here at home.  I am going to push my agenda here.  I will just have to try and save the world one child at a time, starting with my own.   At least if I raise them this way, maybe they will think the same way?

Do you ever feel this way?  Like there are so many things you think could be better?  Simpler?  More faith filled?  How have you been that somebody?  How do you do it?


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Super Powers of Refreshment



I love this little fairy version of me.  Unfortunately this one has the red hair.  (Which by the way will not be returning, I like my dark punky shortness and if it goes white so be it because the red drove me nuts.)

I digressed as usual.

My super power is not volunteering.  It is not planning super events.  It is not organizing.  Yeah, I can do a good job when I focus, and I enjoy  it to some extent.  But it is not my super power.

I knew this was my super power.  I just ignored it for other things.  I was not focused.  Imagine that.

So now, in my new phase (Refreshment and Humor) of stretching and growing into God’s plans for me I am going to use my SUPER POWER.  I even have a cape  I made back when I was teaching.  It is rainbow on one side and silver sparkles on the other.  I was super art teacher in it.  And you know why???  Because it brought out my kindness, it brought out the humor,  it brought out that I cared about touching those little munchkins everyday with art.  I knew it back then.  And I forgot.  I lost focus.  Teaching art for our Bible school made me remember even more.  I LOVE teaching art to little people.  LOVE it.  Art, teaching, kindness.

I am going to wear my cape.  I am going to be super artist, super teacher.  I am going to be super ME.  Super kind.  Super silly.

So what is your super power?  I have been talking a lot about me lately.  Let me know about you!

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Ignoring logic



Yep, that’s pretty much how I am rolling right now.  Going for it.  Might not seem logical, but it’s all good.

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Reach out and Touch…Somebody’s Hand



Love this quote.  Not sure who said it.  But do you remember that song… if not…

Diana Ross:  Reach Out and Touch Somebody’s Hand

Come on, you know you know it.  You know you are humming along…Or not…maybe I am just a child of the 70’s.

Man, I am so going to be humming this for days.

That right there, that is my effort at humor injected into the lives of others and at refreshing others.

That artwork is my hand, my crazy crooked fingers, my painted nails, my ring and symbol I belong to Jeff.  That is my table in my home.

I may not change the world with crazy volunteering this year.  But I am going to use these hands to daily touch lives.  Through painting, through typing this blog, through being there for those closest to me.

I am going to reach out and touch you people!  Be ready!


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So I was saying, I need to refresh and find more humor in life.  The artworks I had scheduled this week are hands.  And that works perfectly.  I can see God reaching out and holding me.  Guiding me.  Reaching out to others.  Trying to help others.

This song has been stuck in my head.  I have many friends going through some really, really tough stuff.   Please take a second and listen to this:

JJ Heller’s song Your Hands

He has got us.  We never leave His hands.  He is leading us.

Right now He is taking me by the hand and leading me to refresh.

I made a HUGE decision last week. I am going to take a YEAR LONG Sabbatical from volunteering.  I am going to say NO. Crazy for me I know.

I am going to refresh myself.  I am going to refresh my family.  I am going to help refresh some of my friends.  I am going to rest in his steadfast love and faithfulness. I am going to focus on art.  I am going to use my art to do a lot of that refreshing.  I can use it as a service.

 But I am not volunteering.

I am going to hold others in my hands and show them love, faith, humor, and refreshment.  I am going to make humor a big part of that.  I am going to smile even more.  I am going to laugh even more.  I am going to infuse my art with all of that.

My hubby is crazy excited about this.  He is not sure I can do it.  But we are both sure hoping that I can.  🙂

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With my Whole Heart


I am thankful for so, so many things.  Often my heart feels so full it will burst.  I will never be able to sing enough to God of my blessings.

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